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| Recommended Dramas : |
1)Hana Yori Dango
2) Nobuta wo Produce
3) Kurosagi
4) Gokusen 2
5)Honey and Clover the movie (a must-watch)
6)Sapuri
7)Ace wo Nerae
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| PHILO...SIGH... |
| Monday, April 25, 2005 |
Gdness, I dunno wat 2 say abt philo, half of me feels relieved tt my worst paper is over while another part of me feels so sianz abt it. I dunno, I haf always had a bad feeling abt philo b4 de paper, I was saying 2 my frens how nervous I felt. Many were juz saying 2 me tt it's okie n dun need 2 b so nervous abt thgs. Well, sorry 2 say gals but those words dun help @ all. It turns out de bad feeling I had, it was a true sign coz I had trouble doing de paper. It's not like I dun understand de paper but I feel tt it's freeaking hard 2 do under exam conditions. I feel like wan 2 go bury myself in de sand like some ostrich. Betul2 rase mcm nak nangis @ tt pt of time. I'm not disappointed lah but stillm feel like crap. Well, since cannot haf chocolate therapy coz I already did tt 4 anthro, I've decided 2 immerse myself in all de lagu-lagu jiwang..N I tell u it really works especially songs by EXISTS n SHEILA ON 7. Really, now I noe y they r my fav bands, really help 2 kick all their blues away wif their lagu jiwang n lagu rock. Sorry gals, if u dun understand de malay words tt I've written..any prob juz ask me..I juz feel tt it's easier 4 me 2 say it in malay.
Okie, now I'm gg 2 say thgs in malay...so if u dun understand ask me, feel free 2 ask ya...Now rase mcm nak pegi hols aje. Betul nye penat belajar, lagi 3 exam, lagi 2 minggu. hehe I cuma dapat survive by juz counting de days twds field studies mod. yeah!betul nye tak sabar nak lari fr all these gile-gile situation.sekarang feel mcm nak nangis...bukannye ape, tgh dengar my mum cakap pasal my arwah dad, suddenly feel emotional, teringat pulak yg de day I will balik fr field studies is de 1st death anniversary. sedih pu ade, sayu pun ade...I really do miss him. Still ingat de 2 mths b4 dia meninggal, all those times rushing 2 de hospital juz 2 c him b4 he breathes his last breath. ingat lagi bangun 2am juz 2 rush 2 de hospital 2 @ least attempt 2 tgk dia b4 dioa leave us. Tak sangke I guess yg such a thg can happen, I mean sometimes u tgk such thgs in dramas n movies, tak sangka pulak such thg can happen 2 u.but I feel blessed tt @ least I blh jage n cakap ngan arwah ayah cukup2, altho I feel I rather haf him here still wif us than tt 2 mths. Rasenye, tt 2 mths was de time I betul2 nangis like @ least once everyday. Tak pernah I nangis like tt...I noe lah ppl say I ni cengeng tapi I rase n I hope ppl willneva c me de way I was during tt period. I dunno mayb I tak percaye org ke, atau I juz feel defensive..after all ini my family affair. Tapi I really muz thk Shazie 4 juz listening 2 me tt nite bile I dapat tahu yg my arwah ayah may not live long.Really keeping a secret 4 him 4 de following 2 wks abt conditions dia memang betul mencabar, everytime tgk dia n cakap nagn dia betul2 nak juz nangis aje. Sigh, betul2 de most bad experience ever, but I do learn 2 b independant n really 2 balance my pvte n public life..oh well, I rase mcm dah luahkan semua yg terpendam, all coz terdengar ape ibu cakap…I guess writing is a gd therapy, dapat tenangkan hatiku yg bergolak…ntahlah ape yg aku cakap tapi rasenye u get de pt..
Oh well, now back 2 studying 4 drugs n American film papers..can’t wait 4 de gathering on sat though..need tt break b4 I study 4 my last paper…n den I’m free…hehe..but hopefully after I get back fr Thailand, can get a job..oh well..tt’s another thg 2 worry..
 This is me feeling traumatised n tired n cannot wait 4 de exams 2 end. Take care everyone n all de best ya..
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